ivory and ebony

the needle

2004-06-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

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Had my therapy today ooh finaly.

My dad brought me to St.Lukes medical and they reffered to us to an orthopedic doctor. We were the first ones there and the doctor wasn't in yet so me and my dad ate breakfast first.

We ate at burger king (oh its been a long time) and ordered a whoper junior with large ONION RINGS and apple pie. Oh that was probobly the best breakfast I've had in years.

The orthopedic stuck like this thick needle in my wrist and squeezed clogged joint fluid from it. It didnt hurt though but the steroid they gave sort of had an after effect. As we were waiting for the elevator I sort of got dizzy and my eye site darkened so we sat for a while on the bench while I swetted like hell....

Thank god for ambidextrousity I'm typing this with just my left hand.

A dog day

2004-06-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

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Ughh!!!!! All that's on T.V is movies about dogs, "101 dalmatians 2: Patch's adventure"and Balto 2. Damn

I was watching "That's so Raven" a few hours ago, it was the episode where Devan (did I spell that right?) was moving away and Ray was trying everything to stop him.
Sigh…
They are so 1000 words story like.

Where getting my wrist checked tomorrow. This only means my surgery is coming soon. I'm a little nervous right now. I don't know what might happen, I just hope this wont do anything to my painting or piano playing.

I made an account at Deviant Art. Deviant Art is a place for art people to go and show there stuff. G.G from FF spree introduced me to it and I got interested. It was only about 3 days ago that I actually made an account. Just in time too, G.G was online that night so I was able to tell her. Check out my deviant art gallery, I added a whole lot of stuff!!!!!

Suzume, my fabulous host is installing this blog script, php thing on my personal site some time tonight (well atlease in my time). I wont be closing this blog I will still be blogging here since a lot of people are linked to this I just need to ask all my linkies to link my personal site too!

Coping with life

2004-06-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

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Well I might be having a new blog soon I don't know if I'll be closing this blog, probably not. I've met a lot a lot of people on this blog so I might not I'll just ask my linkies to add another link.

It seems yesterday wasn't Miggy's Birthday after all, it's today. He got the dates mixed up and so did his parents. He got a three day birthday treatment, I wished that would happen too me.

It's getting really close to school and I am having pre-school gitters already. It's like freshman year all over again, being in a new class and stuff like that. I've been really nervous lately that I've been doing advance reading. I've read the first act of "Romeo and Juliet" and read the first topic of my AP (social studies book).

Sancho came over today. Remember the fight he had with Mystica's son? Well because of that they're moving away. Sad isn't it? Well Mystica already moved away the have attained peace but they’re still moving away. I wonder how it will be once he’s moved away. We’re not that close but I've only been in this village for about 8 months and the sound of Sancho’s motor bike sort of became part of the place already. He was a little bummed too; he didn’t pass the Ateneo exam. Looks like he wanted to switch schools, too bad would have been nice having someone like him around the campus.

Ogy and I were talking a while ago in Yahoo messenger. I shouldn't be discussing this so much. Anyways, he was in "Scherzo", J-pee and Happy's band, that was until this Monday. J-pee told us last Saturday that they were taking Ogy of the band. Sad how sometimes your dreams can throw away your friends. I thought they started their band because of friendship. Then they strike him of for a few lousy performances. Everyone sucks at first; everyone has their little clumsy moment especially during their first few times. Like let’s say me, I vomited out of terror back stage during my first recital not too mention fainted right after. Hearing what happened to them makes me weary what might happen once my, cousin, Tricco and I get our act together.

It comes....

2004-05-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

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Well lets see My grandma's birthday i guess was sort of ok.... everyone was here in casa de lacsamana.... cramp but ok.... got so pooped that at around 3 pm- 5pm I dozed of, napping for the first time in so many years (bad thing though I slept through get backers and ghost in a shell).

By the time I woke up almost everyone had already left.... well atlease it got peacefull again.

Its miggy's birthday tommorow I made him a wallpaper and a gift to match see

hahahaha hmmm maybe I should switch my web name to graphics god? hahahaha

anywho

its only one more week till school starts...... Just one more week....
I guess now we can finally say that a whole year has gone by and a new ones beggining.
I'll make a summer re-capp next week

"end of the yellow brick road"

2004-05-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

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Yay naka balik na sa BJ hahaaha. Last module narin for the whole out reach thing. Hahaha makes me think about all those people who I might name some of them how mata pobre they were. Like Miguel Macaalay,who everytime I called him kept on saying "do you get anything out of this?", "ang corney niyo", "ANG CHEAP".
Do we need to get something out of this? Isnt the main reason of an out reach is to help people why should we have to ask for anything in return! Lets just face it Macaalay your the one who's cheap. Kind of a contradiction to what you said about people being bad in Quinito's party.

Hehe we were all a little out of mood during the whole day...... medyo sabog! hahahaha
Gago ni BJ nag sigarilyo sa harap nang kids

We only have one more saturday to teach and that saturday is a free work shop day. I still can't descide whether to go teach at the acting workshop or on the art workshop. hehehehe I shouldnt have told them about the painting I sold!

Well my father side of the family is sleeping here, so far its just two of his sister's families, none yet but tommorow ayayay everyone will be here in casa de Lacsamana. I guess its expected my grandmother is having her birtday. I admire so much too, Even though she can't walk anymore she still is a strong woman to me.

Well hehe.

topsy tervy

2004-05-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

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Ok today was the day we
1.find out are sections
2. get our textbooks
3. sign up for csp

eird for some reason I felt scared or nervous or was it insecurity, I dont now. Well anywho I am in section 2-g along with a whole bunch of my cass mates from last year.... seems like they just dumped us there.

Seth and Miggi are still my classmates bad thing though Aramis inocando this guy who repeated first year and was a great artist who kept on sort of challenging me is my classmate again.... Will I ever recieve freedom? Well good side Miguel Macaalay is in another section.... practically the only one from MOW who got mixed somewhere else.

I heard this thing before that the AHS tries to control the gay population by putting all the gays in one section.... hmm in 1-m theres ,Gian Torres, Doulo and Macaalay....
suspiscion.

Made another layout for my personal site again this ones cool cause it fits all browsers! check it out! click here

Inspired to....

2004-05-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

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Guess who one AmericanIdol!
Fantasia!!!!

Im still a little sad that jazmine didnt go all the way but atlease one of the people I really liked made it.

I was just watching this "ma-ala-ala mo kaya" ("will you remember" a tv show in the phill where they show the real stories of real people) episode. It was about Alan Pineda, the Filipino member of the black eyed peas.

Kinda makes you stronger and prouder to be a Filipino unlike some fat gay guy I know.

Any who tommorows the day wepic csp assignments, hmmm I wonder. I have an operation scheduled soon too. I just hope I can still play piano after they take out this lump from my wrist. Im a little scared. I don't know what might happen. What if something ballistic goes of and puff I cant paint or play with my right hand anymore. huhhh....wish me luck.

The autisticity Party

2004-05-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

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Haha just came from Quinito's sleep over..... weird but fun.

I came there at around 9 am, played around with the piano and .hack//infection- Quarantine thing on his PS2.

It was miggi and me at first, Macaalay came in around an hour later all that was left was seth.... we waited for him for like hours. we were gonna watch Shrek 2 in eastwood so it was expected that he arrive during themorning since the screening was at 2:15!

Lunch came and he still wasnt there. The food was already layed out 3 chicken joys 2 burger steaks 2 champs and 7 pies........ he was taking too long so I ate his champ
Food of seth left: 1 pack of 2pc chickenjoy and 1 pie

We descided to meet him at the movies if he was still going to make it so we brought along his food. Shrek 2 was hillarious!!!!! I love it specially puss! And that scene with Pinnocco and the womens under wear!!!!! hahahaha. The movie was already finnished and he Seth still want there. We descided too pack up and go back to the Fernando rescidence and meet him there. Quinito started to grow impatient and ate his pie along the way.
Food of seth: 1 pack of 2 pc chicken joy

Seth finally arrived and after a few hours of looking at Quinito's folders of .hack//nightmare and .hack//suck (don't ask). It was dinner time and seth was given his remaining chicken joy but he didnt want it so I ate it! hahaha
food of seth: zero

We spent the rest of the night just hanging out meeting Quinito's parents and raising the levels of normal autism with a game of RPG involving a gay boss using a clck as a sheild named HEVN an assasin with underwear on his head, a freak night with a broken sword a paladin with a freakishly noiy sword and a mage with a dictionary for a weapon and a t shirt for a cape.
Autsistic but fun hahahahaha

we probobly slept at 3 am, I woke up at 7, seth at 6, everybody else at 10

Spanking at 50

2004-05-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

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no I'm not 50 years old don't worry about that!. My dad is! hahaha.

My dad turned 50 today, the big coin. As always my dad doesnt want a big party thing (same for my b-days I dont like big thingies but I like going to parties) kind of a contrast to my aunts 50th birthday.

He and my mom spent most of the day together, the y first went to mass and who knows what they did next.

They came home at around 5 pm and we got dressed to eat out.

We ate at this place called in Little Asia in Timog, great place!
It seemed like my dad was less money concious that time he let us order anything. I saw this thing in the menu which said "Mapo tofu", wasnt that dish in cooking master boy or something(hahaha totoY!). well it did taste good hahaha so did the malaysian prawns!

Im filled!..... sleep over tommorow, got to sleep early Quinitos picking me up

Follow ups.....

2004-05-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

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Hmm.......... been busy with the layouts and stuff. ahh.... two more weeks till classes start. oh. wierd Im really looin forward to it. How weird is that I dunno maybe I am growing-up. Im starting to love school. Maybe its because I have so many plans for this summer.hehehe.

I was alone in th house most of the day. My mom and dad went to this dog show in riverbanks which has been goin on for the past 3 days. My aunt was in the finals for the puppy division. She didnt win though awh.

My other aunts, sister and cuz followed them shortly after they left leaving me alone for most of the afternoon.

I spent most of the workin on the layout you now see before you and other stuff concerning my site.

well they came back with stuff from old spaghtti house, in the end i had to eat their left overs. Imagin finnishing your own plate of carbonara, half a plate of bolognese and half a pate of this pasta I can't even pronounce.

Shit no drinking for me tonight

ahh......hidden

2004-05-23T14:43:00.000+08:00

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hmmm I got tired of te old layout so worked on a new one.... isnt it cool???? hahahahaha! Arjay Quizon eat your heart out! get back to you later got to get of before my cuz arrives

Extremist.... but empty

2004-05-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

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its almost twelve and haven't made my blog yet. hahaha I just recently realised the joy of aving ftp. I finnaly got my dreamweaver to do ftp. hahahaha. I also got suzume to host me yay!

Ive been busy most of the day moving my site to a new server. Also I just moved my personal site to suzumes server check it out click here. I made a new layout in one hour ! hahahaha.

Ah today was pretty tiring too. I was the only AHS student to go on the outreach today. Actually not a lot of people did. we were only 9 all in all. Good thing their not many kids so we only had 2 classrooms.

They say this was the only day when Tini this kid didnt cry.

hahaha.

Anywho we ended up eating in ken afford. A pretty good pace, cheap, affordable and good food.

I was the first one to finish again.... So I said "ok, money down for the bill" so I placed down my share by throwing a 100 php in. for like 10 minutes.... my 100 was the only one their. Then kuya dillan the oldest guy in that table threw in a buck.

Though it was just a joke everyone did place in their share. hahaha

Damn Jasmine was kicked of American idol.
Its ok she knows her country loves her, she will always be the filipinos idol. Not to mention the MOW's songstress

Family Bites

2004-05-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

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Bitchass@#??!!!
Damn son of &*!!@

Today was supposed to be the american Idol special get to now the last 5 finalist thing. As always my I would be using the T.V in my parents room alone to watch it while the rest of the family moved to the den cause they were gonna watch there T.V dramas...
But somebody had to make it difficult.

When I came up to ask my sister to come down since it was the usuall thing we did... she said no....AGHHH!!!

So I had to wait around 5 or so minuts to ask my cousin who was watching something else downstairs till I got to ask if he was finnished watching.

I was watching there atlease for the first 15-20 minutes when my sister came down. So thinking there wasnt anymore people there I rushed out dropping the remote.... When my sister lashed out in a "Im older than you and blah di blahdiblah" voice saying "di naman nanood nang drama si mami eh.

Stings were bound to get ugly and I was getting tired of her "Im older than you o I can get away with murder attitude" and they did.

My dad got as always in the way with his "Im older than any of you so what I say is always right" attitude and I was growing tired of that too. So I just said "Im tired of this its always me to you isnt it!" and stamped my way upstairs to my room.

Its hard to believe this is the dad that Jpee finds Nice and BJ enjoys talking too.

A few minutes later.... my mom came up... Ifind it easier to talk to my mom cause atlease she listens unlike my dad who only listens to what he thinks.....

I dunno what happened next after that pretty much stayed in my room for 30 minutes. Till I came down to right this entry and to start my ritual upload.

Anywho i started uploading the Farplaneabyss Layout which will be the layout for most of the year.... It also shows what I have for my affys and web fans

The shocking truth....

2004-05-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

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…Just finished sketching something…. Feels like I havent drawn something in a year… Well atlease I still have the gift hehehe.

Was just watching American Idol before I sketched…. John Stevens (as predicted got eliminated) hmmm…. His last performance I could tell really came from the soul. Jasmine was crying like crazy.

John was a nice kid….. Its hard to believe his just 16…. That’s not far from me…I mean I’m only 15 and him its like woe…A 16 year old who can beat Manilow…. What Simon said was right, the best reason why he stayed so long is because his just 16 yet he took everything like a man… Even his elimination he took it bravely, Admireable for a young fellow. After watching him so many times this weeks I’m slowly pushing stage fright away…. I mean if he can do it so could I right?… Just a while ago I was playing “rose of may in front of my whole family…slowly but sure, one step at a time. Een Miggi sort of admires the idols.

John Stevens the masters of Woe Salute you!

For the remaining Idols I really hope Jasmine wins…. Bring another pride to this broken nation. A new Lea Salonga (without the ego I hope). Who knows maybe she could be like Lenne and Yuna and stop the fighting down south by a simple song from her heart. I mean they are influencial you know… and even if she loses, she’ll be the Phillippines Idol.
You know what I actually know whats coming in the next 3 or so episodes I just don’t wanna spoil.

My web friend Jason asked me what happened to me when I was picking an org… Guess its time to fess up since I wasn’t blogging at the time (just a normal journal)
This is what I wrote in the email

“....the answer is 3.... that was 7th grade stuff in my school. Well ummm. You see in my school thre are 2 theater orgs The 50 year old pride of the Ateneo Highschool, Dulaang Sibol and the newly formed Teatro baguntao. I was new to the theater biz this was my first time auditioning for anything.... I was counting on my Piano skills playing departure from rurouni kenshee (aka samurai X). It was the most humiliating moment of my life. I played it as I would always do and at the second part where i would play a higher octave... I was going to go for this C note... I pressed the key but nothing came out. Th damn piano was out of tune... and the entrance to Dulaang Sibol was at stake here on this piano.

It was the day of the salu-salo... a big party thing to welcome the school year... I just learned that same day that I didnt get into the art guild (that struck me so hard..... I was picked ovver people who forged they're way in by printing grayscales of they're computers)... I had to know if i was in or not cause the other theater org teatro baguntao had to know my answer by the next day. I was looking forward to a happy party with my new class... But me and my friend mark agular (yup 2 marks auditioned for the same org) had to know since other orgs were counting on our answer and we might run out of choices.... So we ran to the 4th year building where our so called "angels" people who sort of interviewed us and got to know us for the past week were. We went to room 4-a, I asked my "angel" archie and mark went to his "angel" tuttle....Archie was a nice guy, extremely nice had only 3 fingers on his left hand 9never asked why....would be rude) So I aked him.... he lead me to the grounds since this was a first in history event.... he also said that teatro Baguntao was desperate (hmm does that mean i have potential).... he then told me that I didnt.... I was devasted there but ofcoarse i didnt show it....didnt wanna attrack a crowd.. so I went with mark (who got in) running back since we had some performance thing to do back in our party. I then asked my parents if we could go home.... well my class advisor stopped me from going back so I stayed the whole party.... forcing tears not to shed.

We came home after that.... I came home to my room trying to cry but couldnt.... for some reason I just couldnt cry out....
The next day I was in school first period... we were having our elections.... i was running for secretary I didnt win, sort of really upset that day, hed was down most of the day fighting tears again....

I attended Teatro baguntao being totally depressed. I didnt like this org at first felt like a loser who got lft with second rate performers... Then they stated to become family....

I just wasnt the same after that, depression kept me from concentarating. it was only till the third term during our last play Oedipus Rex That i started to feel comfortable with my new org. Shortly after that I went to confession, saying ive been so jealous and insecure for the past I dont know 6-7 months...

I love my new org.... Im planning a revenge plan on Dulaang Sibol planned to fully execute when Im a junior."

2004-05-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

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Well just a few more weeks till school starts again. just week and 6 days or something like that.

Me and Miggi were talking just a while ago. We were talking about how our interest for games were starting to fade. It seems like I really have grown up...

Its not that their are fewer game choices or anything its just that.... Were losing taste for it. If I was 10 again I would be trying out all kinds of stuff. But now....

I started making this thing for farplaneabyss once school starts. Its a new layout and a messege for my affiliates and web fans. I sort of thought that their are some things you have to sacrifice if you really want to shape your goal. This is just one of them....

and the storm rises

2004-05-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

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A follow up blog entry.....

As I was playing metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of liberty (for like the 5th time im sort of attracted to it, fun and makes you think). My mom told me about some news she recently got probobly from one of her sisters.

Gabriel Lim is one of my cousins from my mother side. He is the only cousin I have who's the same age as me. We entered the ateneo together in prep but ofcourse we were never classmates. We grew distant, he started to become one of those gangsta people. He sort of fell in with the wrong crowd. To the point where he got suspended (not on silver wings) twice for truancy and for punching a guy in the face.

I saw him during clearance day... When the promotion list came out. That was the day when we would iknow if we passed or not. All the people who werent in the promotion list had to go through SRP or repeat or worse kicked out.

All the people who werent in the list reported to the records office. I saw him go there with Tita Ditas. At first i wondered what was going to happen to him. Did he appeal? Cause I didnt dee him in the SRP lists....

My mom told me earlier today that he was switching schools (TO LA SALLE OF ALL PLACES). he failed 2 subjects. My mom said that Tita Ditas got fed up with him and so he had to answer to his father's judgement. She said that his dad gave him the choice to move or to repeat. I guess he had to much pride to repeat.

I guess Im the only hope right now. Im my families last chance for honor. I really gotta work hard. The whole clan of the Coscolluela's are depending on me now to be the last atenean of their family shit.

In other stuff CHUKS!!!!!! Ka chat ko si Merks!!!!! Sa YM!!!!!!! hahahaha

The Calm after the Storm

2004-05-16T14:21:00.000+08:00

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Oh... dang.... I felt yesterday's fatigue today extremely tired. extremely bored.... Extremely out of my mind.

Cant wait for school to start. Weird Im lokin forward to it but Im also scared of it.

This month is the CSP registration. I still dont know what to get. Happy said "Astig daw mag alaga nang otistic" hehehe (it means try taking care of an otistic guy they say its cool).

hehe workin on a new layout for Farplane abyss and Maester's of woe I'll get back to you on that.

The irony of this world..... and the people who start the irony

2004-05-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

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Almost a perfect day.... bitch ass dad of mine

Sorry for the language but I have the right.

As I said in the last testi before its about our agreement with my parents and suddenly my dad starts saying this weird stuff na "mark tama na iyan" (mark stop that already) "yung kuryente"...
(the electricity).

This really recked my day.... It was only ten o clock when he said it and I was just about to make my blog entry about the teaching job today..... then he makes this big comment. I dont want to say anything against it since it wouldnt do anything.

Almost perfect day. We had alot of laughs with the TBT people in the public school where we were teaching.... BJ, Rolf and Felix had their first day..... BJ was doing pretty good too.

We had plans to go to river banks just for fun so I askd my dad for extra money. We stopped by my grandmother's first since we were kinda tired.... End up staying the intire afternoon and the mall trip canceled. But it was ok... had alot of laughs just hanging out in my grand ma's living room and abusing my grandmother's infinite supply of Coke.

We were also able to talk about main issues about the current Teatro baguntao stuff like the freshman applicants and stuff.

Had some fun..... then came back home after a 1 hour of internet then this..... Bitch ass...

He's so paranoid cmon you worked hard to get the money you have now spend it a little. And if your so uptight about your money why did you retire at 45 from a 40,000+ php(rough average probobly more) job while your still supporting a highschool son, a colledge daughter and an adopted colledge nefuw.

Dnt take it out on my asswhole you brought this to yourslef get yourself out

I still have to talk to my mom about this.

2004-05-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

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There was this video showed on T.V a guy being be-headed by Iraqi soldiers. They say it was because of prisoner mis treatment by Us soldiers on Iraqi prisoners. A Phil-Am Army person spoke out and told the truth about it. It was true.

What the hell is wrong with our world now a days. Why? I want to ask why? Is principle that hard to respect that we need to resolve to harsh actions. Is violence the only way to solve violence.

To paraphrase Yuna.... I hate this. This sucks.

They say they want to lead this world into peace. yet they commit multiple acts of murder just like this and isnt it ironic that they try to get peace by making war?

And they ant to stop the fighting, they want to recieve fairness and equality, yet they resolve to being unjustfull.

Their just the same.

Who put the rock in kain's hands anyays... no one it was his own cj\hoice and man itself will stop this.

anyways.....

Me and my mom had this agreement before about summer computer. I could only go online at night when not alot of people call. I could do all i want untill 12:00 (no I dont turn back into a toad or anything like that). It was a fair agreement and I agreed.

For a few nights it was ok. My mom only usually went down to remind when it was twelve.

After a few nights my dad came down like I dunno ten when it was just one hour before i started and said...."mark tama na iyan" (translated into Mark stop that already)

Its kinda upsetting how an agreement can be broken just lyk that just because one guy is older. Im gonna talk to my mom about it.

I found this thing in one of the chain letters my web friend jason sent me
Life is precious, don't let it slip by
1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in
return, but what is more painful is to love
someone and never find the courage to let that
person know how you feel.
2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone
who means a lot to you, only to find out in the
end that it was never meant to be and you just
have to let go.
3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can
sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and
then walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.
4. It's true that we don't know what we've got
until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't
know what we've been missing until it arrives.
5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on
someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to
love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget
someone.
6. Don't go for looks; they can be deceiving.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go
for someone who makes you smile because it only
takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
7. Dream what you want to dream; go where you
want to go; be what you want to be; because you
have only one life and one chance to do all the
things you want to.
8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If
you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts
the other too.
9. A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel
word may wreck a life; a timely word may level
stress; a loving word may heal and bless.
10. The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything, they just make
the most of everything that comes along their way.
11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a
kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born,
you were crying and everyone around you was
smiling. Live life so that when you die...
you are the one smiling and everyone around
you is crying.

2004-05-12T14:01:00.000+08:00

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Ey as you can see I changed My avatar. anywho. I had the best sleep last night. For the first time in 6 months I slept without waking up.

Im still bored. The pools still being fixed there's really nothing to do! All I can do is wait for saturdays to come.

2004-05-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

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Election fever has gotten everyone in a weird mood.... anywho I just realy realised how boring this summer is. Im just waiting for saturday to come so I can do something.

I need someclass thing. I can't llive without allowance.

We also finally got the airconditioning installed ahh just in time too. The pools busted for atlease a week due to re sementing and re tyling so I dont have a lot of things to cool me off.

I cant seem to wait for school to start.

CSP registrations are next week I wonder wha I'll sign up for. I dont anna go to goden achres with the old people. I want to do something kids. I'll just have to get there early so I can get a good slot

Anyways I added my avatar in there oh and for those who are wondrin, I descided to write mostly in english since I found out my blogs been going international (mostly from my FF affys) and I found this in happy's blog for seems like fun
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? (37 degrees is the normal temp. or so I think...)
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

comment on it please do

2004-05-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Today was the elections and it scaresme right now.... anyways

I was watching a documentary on the vietnam war. I ask you now why must we do this! During the vietnam war the vietnamise were just asking for their divine right to rule their country the way they wanted it. I'm not supporting communism or dissing democrasy its just that different countries have different needs. I don't see the anything bad with communism it seems to be a good way to govern a poor or unstable country but why must we war over such petty differences.

Gundam wing is a an anime that revovles around war and politics and if you really listen to the dialogues you can get something really worth your time. I got this I dea from this anime its called "total passivism"

Total passivism means the total destruction of all lethal arms from small guns to nuclear missiles. With this countries will have nothing to fight with and will promote more peaceful ways to solve things. The best way to teach is by example and if this was to reach all countries then we could wipe out ar all together

Bush says that iraq has tools of destruction and blahdibladiblah but isnt his fighter jets and m16s weapons of destruction too???

I asked now the leaders of different countries specially the US since right now you are in the highest seat of power. if you can read this entry, to take a look at what Im suggesting, I may only be a kid but that doesnt mean i do not understand!

well thats my little political speech for now

2004-05-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Happy mothers day! well nothing much today. Just mainly went to mass. I just anted to thank god from saving me again from failing.

I should probobly thank TBT too. I wouldnt have gone back to God without them. Next year I'll really work hard. I not sure yet but Gab the only other Coscolluela in ateneo might have been kicked out. I maybe my families last hope. Its time I shaped up.

My friends brought some sence in to me too. Its time to shine.

I'll try to also cut a deal with my parents just for extra motivation. If I was to get into the honor list I would either
a. Get me a domain
b. sign up for DSL
c. Get a new Piano
d. A new PC

I still dunno which one email me if you have suggestions.

2004-05-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Ah today was the facilitators training spent most of my day out of the house (yay!!!!)

Well... the main proloague of the story is...
Jpee our org head put up the whole out reach thing where we the members of teatro baguntao are to teach littl grade 2 public school children.

W'eve already gone through one session of teachin and the next class would be next saturday.

To make us better fascilitators and teachers we had the fascilitators training/re-training/orientation/meeting today.

Jpee being the leader and couldnt make it and because of this not alot of tbt people didnt come.

Jpee asked BJ to represent since it would have been really dishonorable if no one from the org came. Bj agreed since e had nothing to do but knowing BJ he didnt want to go alone. Jpee asked me around 9 pm the night before.... I would come but I didnt have any tranportation, BJ offered the transpo.
-end of proloague--
At 7:30 or somewhere there. We met up at the AHS cafeteria. Bj said one thing before we walked .... walang talk about yosi,inom.... hehehe

Ok eventually we got lost somewhere in taft ave. we had to ask like 4 times.
We finally got there.... being the youngest people in the group.

Ok the training ended... we had to find our own way back. I knew a little of the area since my mom works for WHO.

So eventually we took my mom's route, the LRT (light rail transit)- MRT metro rail transit- jeep, BJ could ride any public transpo except the metro trains.... It was weird for me to be the one leading the for once..... I also ended up paying the whole train fare.

haha weird day but still enjoyable non the less

2004-05-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

I coudnt sleep much last night kept on waking up every hour.... I was so nervous about what was to come today.

Today was the day I would claim my report card.

Actually the actuall day to claim freshman year report cards was around 2-3 weeks ago???? But If you havent been reading my blog lately here's the sitch.

Bumagsak ako sa math kaya kaylangan ko mag Srp which in turn delayed my report card release.

I thought that I was going to fail because of my mid term marks (C and an F1) I did strive hard after that but i was stil very much scared because of the Final Exam.....

I really thought I was going to fail, I was so scared I kept ob thinking about what I would say on my appeal letter and if I was going to get interviewed and how Im my famil'es last hope.....

I couldn't get my self to sleep.... I kept thinking if I let this day end I would have to face tommorow....

There I was the Big Ateneo High .... I went to the records office.... I submitted my envelope with trembling hands.... shaking. He asked me to sign the check list. then he gave me my card. I didnt look at it right away. I took oe deep breath... slowly turned upward trying to eas the pain so I wouldnt be so shocked. Then poof I saw the little letter mark that says C+ and a P which ment pass.

I wanted to shout out but I was bred better than that.

Wooooooooooooh

I gotta go. BJ and I are going to represent my whole org tommorow at a facilitators training.

2004-05-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
but life isnt that simple

First day out of SRP. I planned to sleep half the day but for some reason I kept on waking up at 8. I try to get back to sleep but I just cant. I try to stand up to but I jst seem to not wanna fully wake up. Its almost kind of like my mind wants me to stay there untill I do a certaint thing.

The whole 20 minutes I was there lying awake on my bed the only thing I could thnik of the damn foolish thing I did on the forum and how everyone looked at me during the meeting a little on my SRP grade.

It kept on popping into my mind for some reason....

2004-05-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Was it?

Well today was our final exam.... I feel so scared. what if I fail this? I might fail summer because of this? what would happen?????
I feel so scared just like that week before they placed the promotion lists. Except that time I had people to talk to, to keep my self busy instead of going crazy with paranoia.

May 7 next week will the release of report cards. I hope all goes well.

For the mean time I'll enjoy myself. I started making avatars. new thing for me wanna see how they look go here

2004-04-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
I hope tommorows finals are

Finals na bukas!!!! One last day! yay!!!!!!! 1 last hurdle. The final battle with sin. The LAST MISSION. The entrance to ultimecia's castle. The last room of memoria. The last sending. The fight for the heart of all worlds!One last bump.... 1 last cry, till I leave it all behind.... errr lets stop it there! just 2 hrs of writting and its al finish! Yay! or mabe not.

After SRP I got nothing to do. I dont know if im still gonna go threw voice lessons. There isnt going to be a play anymore so... oh dope!

2004-04-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Im in an internet cafe right now because there is something wrong in my internet connection. Ah there was so many things I should have placed in yesterday. We had the Tbt meeting yesterday. I was scared at first since i said something pretty harsh at erick and I did apologize for it but..... I was having such a guilt trip (5th one this summer). Anywho we were there in the meeting and he was like ook on me and it felt like it wasnt just him.... kinda like an impath thing and everyones emotions are like cramming on my head. I wanted to shout out and cry right there. I couldnt hold my head up any more..... The whole time my chin was resting on the table......

And then dissapointment came in when we voted and poof went the summer play.

And as always we would eat at mc do afterwards. I kept on doing mixture problems... Just so I could keep myself busy cause if i just ate I would end up crying on the table. My dad picked me up at around 3 something.... The moment I went into the carthats when I started to break down.....

the day just kept on getting worse.... My Pc which was already having explorer problems wont connect to the internet anymore bitch.....

2004-04-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Hope it is...

Well the whole conflict i over (and not one drop of blood spilled... dang joke) for now atlease. We have a meeting on monday hope things go well.

Today was our first day on the volunteer thing. Everything was alot better than what I expected. I love kids. hahahaha. It was only till my youngest nefew, kenneth was born that I started to really like kids. The day started of really nice when the kindergardeners were still there.... The kindergardeners were separated from the older kids during the second half.... after that only 3 kids were callin for me...., haha poor Happy totally clueless and he got stuck with the small energetic kids. Though he was really clicking with his partner, Marge. Parang may connection!!? or something like that.... bagay na bagay pareho pang sobrang tangkad! hahahaha. Ang sweet nung dalawa!!!!!

the day was totally great. Plus I got to see Deb again!!!!!
ooh... simply haeven

2004-04-20T17:02:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...it was

The messege below was from a ym conference I had a while ago I am anima142003.

raikkonen25: .............
ericksalonga: kung birthday ng asawa mo, kahit marami kayong bisita.. sino ang una mong paliligayahin?

raikkonen25: .............
ericksalonga: paki sagot any1
raikkonen25: asawa ko......
ericksalonga: if
anima142003: asawa mo dba doi
ericksalonga: very ggod
pvocs006: asawa ko...
raikkonen25: syempre.... bday nya e.
pvocs006: ?
ericksalonga: xiempre yung asawa mo diba. birthday niya yun e...

raikkonen25: tapos?
rolfocampo: can't relate
pvocs006: ponders the meaning of life
pvocs006: ?
anima142003 agrees with pvocs006
raikkonen25: tapos..........
raikkonen25: erick
rolfocampo: oo nga
rolfocampo: ????
anima142003: ????
pvocs006: buzz!
pvocs006: hehe...
raikkonen25: erick
ericksalonga: eh kase yung ibang tao, mass pinapaligaya muna yung bisita kesa sa kapamilya
pvocs006: ...
ericksalonga: now do u get what i mean?
anima142003: nice hairdoo
rolfocampo: syempre dapat feel at home ung bisita.
rolfocampo: pero family first pa rin
ericksalonga: pero the important thing is mapasaya mo yung asawa mo diba?
rolfocampo: yap
pvocs006: at sino nman kya yun?!
anima142003: correct
ericksalonga: ewan...
raikkonen25: agrees with ericksalonga
rolfocampo: si *****************8
ericksalonga: r we getting somwhere
raikkonen25: agrees with ericksalonga
pvocs006: hindi nman po kc ako ganun ka tanga erick...
anima142003: ahhhhh nawala na ko....
pvocs006: i dnt knw...
ericksalonga: good
ericksalonga: pero di namaan ako nag sabi niyan e
ericksalonga: na ginawang analogy sa org naitn
anima142003: ????????
ericksalonga: yells, "For Crying out loud" at anima142003
pvocs006: teka, panu kung sinusubukan mong paligayahin asawa mo, lahat gnagawa mo, pero hindi naman niya na aapreciate?
pvocs006: db?
anima142003: si sorry siya
ericksalonga: yells, "For Crying out loud" at anima142003
pvocs006: teka, panu kung sinusubukan mong paligayahin asawa mo, lahat gnagawa mo, pero hindi naman niya na aapreciate?
pvocs006: teka, panu kung sinusubukan mong paligayahin asawa mo, lahat gnagawa mo, pero hindi naman niya na aapreciate?
ericksalonga: den u should please her more often! duh?!
rolfocampo: find out kung ano ang gusto niya
anima142003: wait may iniisip akong song... perfect explenation for that
ericksalonga: agrees with rolfocampo
raikkonen25: anong song?
pvocs006: dapat ba laging yung gutso niya?
ericksalonga: nothing cannot change my love 4 u
anima142003: di ko matandaan... trying to remember
ericksalonga: ?
raikkonen25: silvertoes!
raikkonen25: hehehehehehehehhehehehe
pvocs006: panu kung mali ung gusto niya?
anima142003: yeah ayun ty erick!
ericksalonga: astig pareho tayo ng iniisip
ericksalonga: edi prankahan na to?
rolfocampo: eh yun yong gus2 nya eh, wala kang magagawa
ericksalonga: BAKIT ANO BANG MALING GUSTO NAMIN?
pvocs006: eh di divorce dude!
pvocs006: ano muna ang maling gusto ko?!
pvocs006: sabihin nyo kung ano ang mali ko at sasabihin ko ang sa inyo!
ericksalonga: nasaan kame sa paggawa ng desisyon?
ericksalonga: NASAAN?
anima142003: ay ngayon ko lang nalaman yung analogy thing kakabasa ko lang nang forums I see hahaha
ericksalonga: kahit si ser bok wala sa picture e
ericksalonga: Applauds anima142003
pvocs006: ISA KA SA MGA NAUNANG NKAALAM NUN! at si ser bok po ang unang unang tao na kinonsulta kok!
anima142003: thank you!!!
ericksalonga: may nagagree ba sa amin?
ericksalonga: kase as far as im comcern wala akong sinabing oo
Yahoo! Messenger: marcomanlangit has joined the conference.
pvocs006: e bakit hindi kayo nagsalita nung miting?!
marcomanlangit: sino mga to?
anima142003: si mark to marco
marcomanlangit: wait tatawag dad ko
pvocs006: dats ur prob.. wla kang pakialam...
Yahoo! Messenger: marcomanlangit has left the conference.
ericksalonga: pano kame magsasalita kung ang bawat lumabas sa bibig ko e kinokontra mo
ericksalonga: sabihin mo!
ericksalonga: sige
anima142003: ding ding ding!!! round one
anima142003: damn it na disconect ako
ericksalonga: gusto mo bang isulat ko at ipamuka sayo yung mga alam ko na hindi ko lang kaya sabihin!
ericksalonga: i'll tell u
pvocs006: sabihin mo...
ericksalonga: pero ayoko
pvocs006: kasi hindi totoo...
anima142003: wow anong na miss ko????
anima142003: I'll shut up muna may inedit ako
ericksalonga: sige, t
pvocs006:
ericksalonga: if i would not hurt anyone, pero i will pvocs006: then go...
pvocs006: hindi maiiwasan yan...
ericksalonga: alam ko naman na ikekwento mo to kay sabs e so, ill shut up na lang
pvocs006: then have my word!
pvocs006: at if ever, y du u care 4 wat she will say?
pvocs006: shes not part of this org db nga?!
ericksalonga: no, i dont care of what she says, i care about her and her emotions
ericksalonga: u want to hear it
rolfocampo: wag na. let it be
pvocs006: dats d same, wat shell say will be coming from her emotions...
pvocs006: sure..
ericksalonga: E WALA KA NAMANG PINAHAHALAGANG TAO SA ORG KUNDI SI MS. LASERNA AT SABS
ericksalonga: SABIHIN MONG HINDI?!?!?!?1
rolfocampo: tama na...
anima142003: tama na rolf tulungan tayo awat na
pvocs006: paano mo nasabi yan aber?!
ericksalonga: O NGAUN WALA KANG MASABI
pvocs006: d mo kasi alam kung anong sakripisyo ang nagawa ko!
pvocs006: look, bakit 2 yrs hindi ako nag varsity?
ericksalonga: COME ON! REALITY PARE! HINDI MO MAKAKIT NA LAHAT KAME AY NANDUN!
pvocs006: bakit hindi ako 2makbo sa osa?
ericksalonga: MAKAKAIT
ericksalonga: LAHAT KAME AY SAKSI SA KAOTOHANNG IYAN
pvocs006: unang una, pinagkatiwala sa akin ni ser bok ang pangangalaga sa mga aktor, lalo na ang mga bisita?!
pvocs006: yun ang trabaho ko...
ericksalonga: e siya pa nga nagsabi sa akin nung analogy na yan e!
pvocs006: !
pvocs006: at ano, sinasabi niyo na yung ideas ko 4 nxt yr will be 4 them?!
ericksalonga: LEARN HOW TO LOOK INTO REALITY
ericksalonga: ibang usapan yan
pvocs006: anu ba yung ideas ko? para sa inyo, sa atin!
pvocs006: same thing, it started dr!
ericksalonga: iba yan
ericksalonga: hindi
ericksalonga: magkaiba yan
ericksalonga: ayoko na magsalita
ericksalonga: basta the reason is different
pvocs006: sige fyn, ure sayin im notr gving a damn with this org then i wudnt!
ericksalonga: at kung di mo pa rin alam yun... LOOK INTO REALITY
ericksalonga: NO, URE OPPOSITE!!
pvocs006: kya nga eh, no one saw wat ive done so it will stay dr...
ericksalonga: URE GIVING TOO MUCH!
anima142003: reality huh... what is the reality may I ask.... What is our reality???
pvocs006: but hve u seen any of it?1
pvocs006: !
pvocs006: u want an analogy?
ericksalonga: THE ACTIVITY IS NOT PART OG THIS
pvocs006: u should be a BEE, one who sees the nectar, the sweet thins, the possitive...
ericksalonga: THE THING I WANT TO POINT OUT TO YOU IS TAHT YOU DECIDE ALL BY YOURSELF!
pvocs006: be not a fly who gets attracted to wats negative...
pvocs006: im not.. wat was d meeting for?
ericksalonga: the meeting is for getting us to be involved in it
pvocs006: i askd you, "so may tanong ba kayo?"
pvocs006: howcome hindi ka nagsalita nung miting?!
ericksalonga: wala nga kameng tanong kase shocked kame
pvocs006: tapos ure gnna say everything behind my back?
pvocs006: u cudve told me personally...
pvocs006: bat kailangan mong idamay ang buong org?
ericksalonga: dapat nila malaman
ericksalonga: u should listen to us
pvocs006: kung sinasabi mo na ako ang may problema, dapat sa akin mo lang sinabi ng nagawan ko ng paraan kaagad...
ericksalonga: no, i refused to do that
ericksalonga: i choosed to let everyone know
pvocs006: but thats wat u shudve done...
pvocs006: now tell me, may magagawa pa ba ako after all dat came out?
pvocs006: WALA NA!
rolfocampo: ganyan si erick kahit nung 1-n p lng tyo
pvocs006: nwalan na ng tiwala ang lahat sa akin...
ericksalonga: thats the right thing cause i give a damn ABOUT WHAT THE ORG CAN SAY
ericksalonga: HINDI AKO MAGDEDECIDE LANG SA SARILI KO
pvocs006: wat didi you point out ba?!
pvocs006: dr was no actual desisyon...
ericksalonga: come on!
pvocs006: bago yung miting, alam mo na ang tungkol doon!
pvocs006: db?
ericksalonga: walalng sesisyon?
pvocs006: i called you up...
pvocs006: may cnabi ka ba?
ericksalonga: oo, pero alam ba nila?
pvocs006: wala!
ericksalonga: i told u na kinukuha ko yun sasabihin ko sa ORG!
ericksalonga: HINDI SA AKIN
pvocs006: yun na nga, kung sino pa ang dapat maging modelo ng org, sya pa ang nagcconsinte sa org...
ericksalonga: ah ganun?
ericksalonga: e yan ang gusto nila.. may magagawa ka?
pvocs006: may magagawa pa nga ba ako pagkatapos mong ipamukha sa kanila kung gaano akong ka walang kwenta?!
ericksalonga: meron
ericksalonga: bakit hindi mo kaya subukang maging si jpee
pvocs006: bakit, ano ba ako ngayon?
ericksalonga: yung taong kilala ko DATI
pvocs006: ako pa rin 'to, just becamo more matured in facing wats right...
ericksalonga: alam mo, eto na ang pinaka pange na comperison mo... LAHAT NG MASASAMANG UGALI NI MIGS napunta sayo
ericksalonga: at sinabi mong URE FACING REALITY?
pvocs006: ano ba ang realidad na cnasabi mo?
pvocs006: sinasabi ko lng, kayo naglagay sa akin sa puwesto ko ngayon, sana naman nasa akin din ang tiwala nyo...
pvocs006: ngayon, anong realidad ang sinasabi mo?
Yahoo! Messenger: raikkonen25 has joined the conference.
raikkonen25: elo!
pvocs006: ?
pvocs006: ano erick, tell me...
pvocs006: dka mkasalita?
pvocs006: cge, post ka uli sa website,,,
pvocs006: i shall speak no more...
pvocs006: nd oh, hindi ako nanghihinayang bitiwan ang posisyon ko...
pvocs006: kung ayaw nyo ng pagbabago, pababayaan ko kayo...
Yahoo! Messenger: pvocs006 has left the conference.
rolfocampo: tapos ang away.... yata
anima142003: yeah tapos na
anima142003: naglog of na cla
rolfocampo: icocopy paste ko to for reference
anima142003: me ren

An org torn apart..... how sad. Torn between two fools who are to fucked up with pride to see the "reality" that is "reality".
Just like a thousand years ago, things havent changed one bit. everyone's still filled with anger and bitterness. I think I finally know how shuin felt, why he chose his path yet I dont plan to be like him.
Lenne: You must stop! Thats enough!

2004-04-18T19:05:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

It realy is....

Hahaha sunday. Magtatapos na angweek end. Balik sa SRP bukas. bday nga pala ni happi bukas advance "HAPPI" BDAY! HAPPI!

I was tinkerin around with div layers and I finally understand it YaY! I'll just finnish up the layout this one will probobly take a month hahaha anyways.

There's only two weeks left gotta hold on there!

2004-04-17T12:08:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

and they are finally....

I think Im finally getting to my org mates I just read happis last blog entry.... Looks like one his seen te good point in this. hope others will follow. It was relaxing for me reading his entry. I had just spent 2 hrs working on this one link button for my ffshrine and it was relaxing to know someone finally turned our way. guess those thousand words have been spoken now. hahaha.

Well this the last saturday that I will be bored. The last saturday that I ll have a sore but because of sitting too long in the computer chair. Next Saturday I start my volunteer hours holding a workshop for 2nd grade public school children. Well goodbye uneventfull saturday. oh and ive descided to stop the H6 style on the blog

2004-04-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
and it was actually

Mid terms were a push over. I finnshed 15 minutes before the time ended.
My email penn pall emailed me, he sai he and her sisiter visited kinocsdwellings. They saw my pictures and his sister saw my picture and said I was hot??? okay???? weird Ive heard cute but hot??? thats a first.

2004-04-15T18:21:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Midterms being simple?

okay tommorows mid terms. Right now all i really need to do is review my QT and Pst and memorize a square table (squares of 1-20).

Okay I will pass this exam! I will pass this exam

I uploaded new shit on my ffshrine check it out click here ey for those whose been lookin for 1000 words lyrics here it is

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily
"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time
And distance holding you, suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever
The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say
"Wait for me, I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stand with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore
To hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm stroing enough to know it's not too late
Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see
I know they are reaching you, suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradel you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever
Oh a thousand words (a thousand words)
Have never been spoken (ohh yeah)
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home, (carry you home) and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (on silver wings!)
And a thousand words (ohh)
Call out through the ages (call through the ages!)
They'll cradle you (ohh yeah)
Make all of the lonely years to only days (onely days)
They'll hold you forever.
Ohhhhhhhhhhh a thousand words

2004-04-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
but it gets dirty again

ahhh looks like the war aint stopping..... ahhh what will ever happen to this org. I am really loosing hope. visit our forum and vote if you care

I dont know what to say any more... Ericks pushing me to his side, I know he says some truth but I know Jpee has a good point too. This is new to me... being in the middle, ive always been the youngest sorta the baby...

I dont know what to do... I wanna have a play, but I also see ericks point in this. Its like im being torn apart now. This whole things foolish...

Ayoko na plaease... ayoko na bagay dito 1000 words concert scene...

2004-04-12T15:47:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
and maybe...

Got a long test tommorow but I finnished half of my reading in school. Anywho for the first time I started and finished "minority report". Kinda cool. The fact that their are things like "pre-cogs" or something like that is kinda cool.... gives me good ideas for my comic that is if im still going to continue writing it.

I actually spoke with Nessa yesterday...The Nessa of taintedreamz.net! I showed her some of my wallpapers and she liked them. I think she's gonna place them on her site... woo hoo! Ive been a fan of her site for months now and finaly I got noticed! yeah!!!!!!!

2004-04-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
i feel it too...

well this will be the last time I blog entry today... backto SRP. Ahhh. Grabe I woke up to feeling extremely great!I guess it was because I did something right. I place a ew topic in the forum. I have to thank G.G for helping me with it too. Just hope everyone looks at it.
click here if you wanna see it.

Ive been smiling almost the whole day. I cant remember the last time I smiled this long... I think it was family pictures last year. haha

2004-04-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
maybe they are...

My first movie review...

This is my first movie review so I picked an easy one to do. I just finnished watching "The King and I" on Disney. Its all about this one king who says words of principle and honor yet he shows none, in the end being labled as a "barbarian". As I watched there was this one line that got me thinking a lot about my family. Anna said "I cannot stay in a country where a promise has no meaning" or something like that.

It got me thinking how many times have there been similar instances here in our house? I dont mean to rant about my father but how many times has he gone about with principles but doesn't even show a single example of it, and sometimes contradict it. How many words have been spokenbut never done.

We can only hope for change like the king who in the end saw his errors and tried to improve.

2004-04-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
well they're clean now

With the mapoys gone everything has become silent... I'm gonna have to do soe serious cleaning tommorow haha.

Anywho the current computer issues have been resolved... I'm still going to be able to blog and averything but starting next week Im going to be having an actual time to do them now only on week ends that is so to all my YMs I'm gonna be able to chat wid ya all night now yeah! On the week days however I will only be online for atlease 30 min a day to make a blog entry thats all.... haha

oh yeah I havent said anything about holy week in this blog yet that is so bad of me......
lets take a moment to remember our sins our trespasses and our own personal intensions.

2004-04-10T14:17:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Like i care right now...

Freaken hell does my life suck. I go through enough crap in life so that can just sit down at home and do the things I love to do... I go through the trouble of finding the right clips, waiting for hem to download, splitting them at the right beat, findin thr right song, saving money so that I can have a steadu supply of internet cards when somebody just waltses in without a care in the world and cuts the plug. I just lost two hours worth of hard work.

What makes it even more irritating when I try to finnish things up until the night, the parentals come in saying "tama na iyan! akyat na!" when i do it in the day light hours they complain that no one can call the house because of the internet.

We'll Ive had enough! I'm not waitin any longer. Its their time to wait. I do not care a single bit I'm doin loadin what I wanna download there going to have to wait.

2004-04-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
And they are to me now

Looks like he forum war is almost over Matt reminded us of something. just go to teatro baguntao's forum later if you wanna see it. hehe Guess things are kinda back to normal. I gotta thank matt.

2004-04-09T16:57:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
we should be its good friday

Hmm still really worried/scared/angry at the teatro thing (I dunno which emotion). Well good thing atlease the forum war had a rest today no one made a new entry so far. I guess they're taking a rest since its good friday. The battle is over for now.

I really wanna have a play I really do. nakakainis cause of everybodies ranting. ahh. sighs and looks out the window been a long time since it really rained here... It relaxing to see raindrop hit the roof shingles through my bedroom window.

2004-04-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
though people are makin it so complicated.

Kaka galing ko lang sa bisita iglesia. I spent those 7 prayers at 7 churches praying for tbt. I just came home and totally I dunno scared? worried?

Kaka log on ko lang and erick sent me a messege sa ym. may reply siya sa reply ko sa forum nang teatro. He seems to be putting stuff on me I dunno maybe I shouldnt have made that post but I guess its about time I did do something instead of making people speak for me. I cant hide behind other peoples backs forever. Its just extremely painfull to hear this from them. Its like there saying "I'm just a freshman" thing it hurts because I hear it everyday from my family and now I gotta hear it from them.

I really dont know if I can take this. I'm having the biggest break down of my current life and for the first time in so many years I'm crying. It's kinda weird seeing tears on my hands again.

2004-04-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
but its hard too

Grabe teatro people! Don't have any passion! I'm feelin so low today extremely!
Jpee said to me last night over YM messener that he'll be cancelling the play. I hate this! God its all because of that thing Erick posted. Damn it. I really anna have a play this summer. My summer goal list is going down the drain because of this.

Masisira summer ko kung walang play please naman guys.

In the sunnyer side of my house I made a new video! This one feat. kingdom hearts but as always low res dahil Dial-up lang ako... I wish I had DSL. I'll make a deal with my parents that if I get honors this school year we'd get DSL (wish me luck!)

2004-04-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
it is so why are you complainin

okay its really late but I'm still awake.
I was talkin to macaalay over on sms. I was replying to his post on the guest book of my personal site.
We started talkin about what erick wrote on the TBT forum (the links down there but it might be deleted soon). He seems to agree with him.

He says that he's done so much and TBT wouldnt have won that award without him but he know says "leave me out of it", whatever happened to that dream. Cmon guys what's wrong with you!!! This is not just a school thing that were graded for. Its something that we love, something that we enjoy doing. This is just like me and the piano it's no different or happi and his Guitar. Jpee's right was right with the commitment thing! I thought you guys were better than that.... I can't beleve it.

2004-04-07T08:29:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
The things boredom can do....

Hmm wel no classes today dahil holy wednesday... Happy naman ako dahil break sa SRP though grabe ang boreing naman... How many times have I made a run through on run through na ko sa Eyes on me on the piano..... 16... shit

Grabe I actually feel like studying on a vacation day.... weird any who just updated my sites there's a lenten season wallpaper up on farplaneabyss called lenne's sacrifice haha wala natalagang magawa. As Kiara said "Summer... you used to be a lot of fun". She is right.

When we were kids we used to enjoy summer, going to the beach endless day of doing nothing but watching T.V. I guess as we grew older our concepts of fun changed.

I used to think piano was dul and boring but look at my blog see...... hahaha
Well maybe I should go study now. Mid terms are friday next week.

2004-04-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

Nakagawa narin ako nang bagong layout.
I guess this one can really be called "simple and cean"
Hahahaha anywho this is called a thouand piano keys itsnot fully completed yet I will still put some editing into the backgrounds but It will be finnished soon I hope.

Well todays the last day of SRP for the week... We just had our first Long test and maganda kutob ko dito. Na perfect ko yata I dunno basta mataas ako! hahahahahahahaha

Now lets see... what to do a little bored eh

2004-04-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
ahh a mark lacsamana first nag-aral ako para sa long test bukas.....

Lets see umm anong mga entry yung nasa forum nang Teatro baguntao

Hmm my post c bj lets see click here here

hmm seems to be something about lookin for a new Tbt place...
Well I agree.
Ang mahal nang hayes hall... Ang pangit nang hardware at ang pangit nang backstage! we have to find a good way to make money.... mag kano bayad sa callboy? joke! (haha gusto cguro ni macaalay yung idea na iyon!)

another one hmm c erick naman....
click here to
view
well masasabi ko cguro medyo lumlaki ulo ni erick sorri man pero kung away mo di wag para samin iba were happy to do this well itsfun for me! hahaha gives may rather none eventfull summer more enjoying! hahahahahahaha
well gotta go study more!

2004-04-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
ahh a mark lacsamana first nag-aral ako para sa long test bukas.....

Lets see umm anong mga entry yung nasa forum nang here

hmm seems to be something about lookin for a new Tbt place...
Well I agree.
Ang mahal nang hayes hall... Ang pangit nang hardware at ang pangit nang backstage! we have to find a good way to make money.... mag kano bayad sa callboy? joke! (haha gusto cguro ni macaalay yung idea na iyon!)

another one hmm c erick naman....
click here to
view
well masasabi ko cguro medyo lumlaki ulo ni erick sorri man pero kung away mo di wag para samin iba were happy to do this well itsfun for me! hahaha gives may rather none eventfull summer more enjoying! hahahahahahaha
well gotta go study more!

2004-04-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
yeah its gonna be o simple and clean how I'm gonna pound macaalay to death!

Inuto akonang gagong patatas! I was freaken out yesterday about the whole Jade thing yun pala wala naman pala si Jade doon! Walang magawa yung putang Alan K.

-sings a medly of songs-
Wait and see when
I'm through
I'll make a gay fool out of you!

Alone as always
I've been searching the gay bars...

Mister I'l make a man out of you!

2004-04-03T18:25:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Life is so cruel... Life is so cruel... Life is so cruel... in a different point of view

Today started out as an ordinary day where I would wake up at 6:00 am and go on the internet. At 10:00 I disconnected and called my friend Miggi, he was about to go to an animax convention with the rest of the LXG, I wasn't going because I descided to finish my studies and homework today. REally I did I'm trying to develop my study habits cause I dont wanna waste my second chance and for some reason I wanna do this with Magis.

So I finnished at around 2:00 pm went online again and chatted with Happi and went offline at 3:00pm. After a while my aunt asked me to rigg up the dvd player since she wanted to watch the passion of the christ. While I was plugging it up I saw that I had 2 text messages on my phone. They were from Miggi and Miguel who at the moment were at the Animax convention. They said the most awesome and worst thing that could happen to me.

Jade was at the convention as in the Jade from sweetbox the one with the voice that calls out to the ages the one you here in that MP3 at the top!
Why did I have to pick studies over fun!

UHH! I'll get through this sooner or later. I guess you have to sacrifice stuff if you really want to achieve your goal.
I dont have to meet jade just to show her how much I adore her. After all...
-sings the next lines-
"though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll Fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings.."

2004-04-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
SRP... in position its show time boys!

WOOHOO! Life is so good to me. I got a perfect score on my last test! I love it! SRp isnt that bad haha as long as you study and have a good motivation you'll make it through.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2004-04-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Life is so cool... in a different point of view

First day of SRP... Guess it wasn't so bad. Di naman ganoon ka hirap kung mag-aaral ka eh. (note to self: start studying it helps hahaha)

Well madali pa naman eh. so far that is.
Probobly the hardest thing for me to do this day was wake up in the morning. Pero the thing that keeps me going everytime na-iisp ko na away ko na oh tinatamad ako is a reminder on my 3310 hehe secret na iyon! HAHA.

Wala lang mainly tignan natin sched ko. hmmm.
first period I have a quiz and then a slight discussion and another quiz somewhere in the 3rd period. Then next week I have a long test on tuesday after that a long week end for studying.

Anywho gotta go study some more I want to really make good on the next quiz which is lets lok back up tommorow. Haha

and maybe somethings are that simple...

2004-03-31T20:34:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...

…the exile…

Well tomorrow is the first day of SRP. I’m scared half to death but I know must do this.
The thought that what happens next year relies makes me scared even more. I’m getting so insecure, to the point that my insecurity is going into paranoia.

I’m getting so paranoid that I finished another chapter of my math book. Well I guess it’s for the best at lease.

It’s hard; to think that this will be the last night I update my websites for a month
It’s hard, realizing that tonight I have to sleep at nine o’clock.
It’s hard, knowing that tomorrow I have to wake up at 5:00.
It’s hard, accepting that today will be the last day I use yahoo messenger and chat with my friends until April 30

The last day to download mp3s and movies,
The last day to visit my affiliate websites,
The last time I get to read G.G’s weird but enjoyable rants and raves on yahoo messenger,
The last day I watch the music videos I have.

My last time to listen to 1000 words,
My last look at Lenne
And the list goes on.

And my reminiscence ends here I think I’m gonna go do what I usually do after watching a Sibol play… maybe after watching my videos one last time
Peace

2004-03-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
hmm GUILT TRIP...

okay today was SRP enrollment, so duh I went to the highschool. We also had a meeting at the same time.
After the meeting me, Bj and Jpee descided to eat at Mcdonalds. BJ and I went ahead because Jpee said he was going to wait for potch who was driving her way from makati.

So we met up at Mcdonalds and after wards nagka inbitahan sa glorietta. I didnt wanna be a Kj so I weent with them and potch was driving us. Takot na Takot ako kasi eto first time na tumakas ako at this scale and was freaking out everywhere. Then the unexpected happened.

Potch's car stoped and it wouldn't start. A whole scene with phones and stuff like that and Potch descided to have us go ahead. She started crying dahil nahihiya siya samin. I feel sorta responcible dahil sa freak outs ko.... Uh why did I have to be so over protected when I was a kid....

Reminder to tose TBT members who didint get the email right click on the link below and select save target as

download video

2004-03-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
head aches of my past self....

Another truck load of guest came in today! YAY! NOT!
Its different this time. Its my extremely makulet konyo na mga pamangken sa mother side.

ven though madaming distractions. Malaki naman ang nagawa ko today. I made 1 whole new FFX-2 music video! Using the most amateur video editing tool out there, Windows Movie maker.
nakaka-iyak to Ginamit ko my immortal ng evanescence and input X2 clips.
I call it "immortal memories"

Anywho my sister went snoopin in my closet. nahanap niya yung naiean na trunks ni BJ and said "alam ko na bat nang hiram ng shorts si BJ..." Masyado daw malaki trunks ni BJ hahahah!

Ay before I end congrats kay Me-anne ang pinsan kong model na kamukha daw ni Lenne. Congrats today was your graduation.

2004-03-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Okay today was the TBT party. Grabe was I nervous to death this morning.

I was so nervous because of the whole filter motor problem and thank God na balik yung motor kaagad.

So lets see. Dumating ako sa school around 2:10 pm to pick them up. medyo sad kasi not aot of people was there but atlease the funny guys came sorto made up for the lack of people. Haha!
Medyo na miss ko rin yung weird bunch haha.

Gagong BJ. Bang hiram siya ng shorts tapos iniwan niya dun sa shower.Meron naman siyang trunks, ng hiram siya ng shorts dahil "concious daw siya". (rehehelealy)
Though ang naisipan ko if pumunta si Bj here na may suot na trunks sa luob ng pants niya, and iniwan niya dito trunks niya that means he went home without underwear!!??

2004-03-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Shit di makatulog.... dang...

nervous reck...
of all the bad luck...
Kinuha yung filtration motor para i rewind kahapon. Bukas mababalik na. I just hope it comes in time.

I spent half the day trying to hide bad photos. I never thought I had that many bad close ups. dang never thought I'd find a potty shot of myself.
Nothing much to d after that.
I actually studied in advance for SRP. A just finnished the first 3 lessons of chapter 1 of our Algebra book.
Weird I actualy was in the mood for practice. I played rose of may for 2 hours straight.

I'm not sleepy yet. I think I'm loaded on caffeine or somethin.

2004-03-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
and the excitement feels in...

WOOHOO!!! WERE HAVING A BLAST! grabe!
yeah right.

boredom to death year. I actualy napped today.
Let's see what has boredom did to me.
Today I've made.
1. 3 wallpapers
2. 2 layouts
4. arranged a midi
wow fun

2004-03-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Ahh saved... relief inbetween battles.

Clearance the big day. The final battle. The final summoning.
The enemy was infront of me. I looked at it and there it was one giant line from the cashier to the first section on the left side of the senior quad.
Took me two and 2 1/2 hours but I got there.

Just when you think you've beaten sin you find that youstill have to beat Yu Yevon...

I still had to find out what lies in my future was it...
A. Sumer remidial program
B. Repeat
C. Say good bye, say good night cause its all over

If you answered A. then your correct!
Woohoo I still have a chance! the heavens have given mercy upon me!
I won't waste this chance! That's like using a pheonix down without using curaga afterwards.

Thank You everybody!
Thank You Sir Bok for talking to some of my teachers!
Thank you Miguel Macaalay for giving me the name of that tutor
Thank You Gil and Jojie for tutoring me
Yhank you Enzo For keeping me awake until 1:00 pm

2004-03-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Sunday... The night before the storm...

Tommorow we find out what destiny holds for me.
1. Summer
2. Repeat
3. Kick out

Well we'll justhave to see
I really hope I don't repeat nor get kicked out

The Mapoys departed today at around 5:00
Hmm gettin a little to quiet.
Can't do much anyways.

reminder people teatro Baguntao party this friday meet up at the AHS by 2:00 pm! I will be there to show you the way!
-currently listening to life is cool by sweetbox-

2004-03-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
The day started out great but i guess no day is perfect.
The mapoy family came to my house so my cousins were here.
They tried out the pool like everybody else and it started out great.

I started to feel a little uneasy when Macaalay called and said that my name wasn't on the promotion list.This either means I'm goin to summer class, repeat or get kicked. ( i hope the worse I do is summer I don't wanna leave this place)

i really got irritated when I was workin on layouts
I was tryin to do divs like the one on tainted.net and finalsummit when the electricity fluctuated (excuse my spelling) and i lost all my work.
Damn it all!!!
Then the irritation of my cousins naggin came in so I couldn't finnish anythin. (miracle I even finnished this blog entry)

I tried to take some of it out by playing soe tunes on the electric organ. I tried doing eternity since I could already do the main tune but when I got to the middle, I realised that I didnt have enough octaves on that thing.
I HATE THIS!!! I WANNA TEAR IT APART!!! MY DAD DOESN'T SEEM TO REALISE THE DIFF BETWEEN THAT ORGAN AND A PIANO!!!
Stuborness of the old!

I remembered my dad sayin on christmass day that we would go out and buy you your presents since tey didn't get me or my sister anythin at all. Guess what? We haven't gone to a mall since December.
he also laughed when I asked him to get me a keyboard. It was like he didn't take me serious. He was tellin jokes about it to my aunts and everything.

Talagang na-inis ako diyan. matagal na matagal na. Nakakatamad na nga mag-practice dahil diyan.
Ano naman magagawa ko? Halos wala naman ako ma tutugtog diyan dahil 3 and 1/2 octaves lang, ang hina pa!

laking sakit sa ulo.
Dapat nga pumunta nalang ako sa soiree...

2004-03-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
I woke up at guess what 6:00 am. well guess i'm back on track.
We watched the passion of Christ today I wonder if it's really supposed to be in hebrew?
Anyways...
Got my sites new layout up visit it and tell me what you think click here
Sancho came by, atlease it livened up the place a little, they tried out the pool.
I'm currently lookin for good lenne pictures to start my shrine or i dunno make a walpaper.
Anyone out there find any please contact me.

My dad brought home a new dog. CUTE!!! Its been a while since we had a bitch.
She's a mini pincher. She's 4 months old but she looks like she's 1 month old. They say she got this recessive gene which made her smaller than the others.She's sort of a hybrid, in geek terms a mutant transgenic, in the popular arrogant suck up peoples terms a freak and in the acting kind overly otistic like that teacher in hey arnolds terms "special" but to me she's just cute!!!

Her registered name is "maja's little princess" we descided to go with princess to shorten it

I'm still lookin for a webhost. Ive asked every body out there I just need to wait for a reply.

2004-03-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Ahh for the first time nagising ako ng 10:00! Enzo Kasi!
hehe

my arms still a little sore from the swimming but atlease I can still do a good stroke.
been working on a new layout for my personal site I found this great art square art works on tainteddreamz.net
and I edited them to make a lay out and 2 wallpapers.
It will still be a week or so til its uploaded.

I kinda miss my pencil and paper. My couzin (no not me-anne) called in askin me to make a design for a grad ball gown (??? weird she's still a fresh man) well I can't say its my its my forte but since she's my couzin might as well.

Any who I didnt get to go to quinito's sleep oer first of all I woke up at 10:00 second my dad couldnt drive me there and third i'm still a little tired from our Cavite trip.

2004-03-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
grabe its so late na
TY kay enzo di ako makatulog
wala ako sa mood matulog...

Guess im in a happier mood than my last blog days. I think I found where I was during the time when I made this blog.

talagang gising na gising pa ko
it might have been the cadbury or the 1000 words marathon playlist on my winamp

2004-03-17T16:08:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
well im back from the class trip thing...
I got 6 cramps on the swimming pool and got my piano skils totally humiliated.
Though we did have a bonding thing I still fel kinda sad almost like a part of me just died. Its not about the
resectioning but something else...

A lot of creepy things happened there I just don't wana remember most of it right now.
I feel like some boddy just got a shot gun and shot right through my stomach.
I fell like somebody just grabed a javelin and threw it right through my chest impaing my whole body.
I felt like this whena friend of mind stole my ex from me back in 7th grade

Ahh the silver wings layout didint work so well either... hmmm

2004-03-16T08:24:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
we have an class outin to day so im makin this entry while i still can..
I'm finding myself forcing my body to go..
yesterday while i was returning books I found myself having a hard time lookin at my classmates faces

I don't know whats wrong with me...
I made a list of things I wanna accomplish by the end of this summer
1. stop lookin like the sickly anemic 6 year old i used to be
2. get through Summer Remedial Program with MAGIS
3. act in my first play
4. Finnish atlease 1 book (probobly tale of two cities)

2004-03-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
Mark Aguilar invited us to watch their play that was showing today. Its not that I don't have a ride or dont have the time but I really don't know if I can still do this.

Alam kong ilan play na ng Sibol ang nalampasan ko pero di ko. Palagi ko nalang pinipigil umiyak o sumigaw dahil palagi kong natatandaan ang mga nanyari pagnandoon ako sa audience seat. Natatandaan ko palagi yung 3 hapon na nandoon ako. Natatandaan ko yung gabi na tumakbo kami ni Mark A. papunta sa 4-a, yung gabi na pinigil kong umiyak pero walang lumabas na kahit isang ng luha.

I've always held it in. Through the 2-3 hours (i never count) I watch their shows. I would be fighting my minds instinct.

After that I would run home. I'd lock up in my room, curl up on my sofa bed and force myself to cry but I can't.

Its even harder to watch this one since Mark A. is is in an actual role and the only actual role Ive done is jonas for my english project.

I wanna scream
I wanna shout
but I just cant

I sound so wimpy right now letting something like this haunt me. I thought I already gt over it but looks like I havent.

I dont have BJ's courage
I dont have Miguels quick thinking
I dont have J-pees leadership
I don't have half their smarts either.

I'm not just a failure I m a wimp as well. My will is strong my ass who am I kiddin

2004-03-12T07:35:00.000+08:00

so simple and clean...
woke up at again 6 am. dunno why I keep waking up at this hour.

I had trouble sleeping last night. I had to read 2 chapters of tale of two cities by charles dickens just to get me to sleep. In the end I left my bright light open while I was a sleep.

Sobrang bored. Bumabalik tuloy yung 1000 words fever ko.

kamuka ba ni Me-anne si lenne
compare

this is lenne

this is me-anne my cousin mag kamukha ba

2004-03-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

Eya last day of school. I'm here at home though I dont actualy want to be. I don't know why but I don't want to leave school. I don't wanna leave it behind.

I don't know what will happen to me anymore. I don't know if im going to be taking the SRP or not. After what my father told me. I feel even more motivated.

kwento sakin ng dad na sinabi sa kanya ni sir bok kanina:

"wag kayong mag-alala ser tutlungan ko si Mark. Kaylangan ko si Mark, kaylangan ng Ateneo si Mark...
No one in his batch has those hands!"

Pinag malaki daw niya yung portrait ni Ms. Laserna.
parang nahihiya ako tuloy ngayon.

Thank You sir Bok gagalingan ko talaga.
Thank you sa inyong lahat. lalo na yung mga nakalagay doon sa artcle ko sa right side ng screen.
Thank you all of you

2004-03-07T12:00:00.000+08:00

Ey we got to try out our pool today. grabe ang lalim.

Grabe din todo aral ako ngayon sa A.P, haba ng coverage eh. I still have half of the religion coverage. AHHH!!! I know naka tamad pero for once I wanna finnish something that I started.

I swore this would be my best exam and I will do it. I'm gonna go to every review class that's being offered. I'll study till' ten. BASTA I have to make this count.

I can do "my immortal" by evanescence on Piano now too. Its so cool though what I have with me is the piano solo but its easy to re-arrange. All I have to do is use my right hand for the base and don't play the treble for the verses but of course I still have to play the thing regularly during the chorus and adlibs.

3 more days of school let's make it count

Despair
"To be forgotten is worse than death"
-Freya Crescent from FFIX-

PS. GUYS PATULONG SA ALGEBRA!!!

2004-03-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

Heya exams na nest week im getting really scared. Ive decided since last exams im giving it everything. I know im probobly facing a SRP on math but I have to try my best.

Ive been studying my AP nonstop for 2 straight days now almost finnished. We have a really really long coverege. I better get started on religion too since that's pretty long too. I'm attending the review classes that the teachers are sponsorring just to help.

Mrs. De Peralta said somthing important to me that's I'm really in the mood.
She said that I should work hard and finnish the race so I can look back without regrets.
I don't wanna have any regrets so I'll do everything I can even if it kills me.

"My Will is Strong"
-Phoenix from X-men-

2004-02-25T15:40:00.000+08:00

This is a little entry for the teatro people...

12:32 art class

Its the middle of art class and I finnished mine early (as always). I have the whole 30 min of whats left of the period. Our art class is starting to get to easy. Its to basic for me (im not bragging it is boring).

I have a party to attend. A victory party to celebrate the success of Oedipus Rex. I realy feel at home in this org. This is my place.

8:30 pm

I'm here at Matts house, the after party. Well Enzo, Apags & J-pee are jaming at my right. Rolf, Felix & leo are watching Brother bear at the bar. Excell and the others are playing cards at the table to the far left. As I said I really feel at home here. This is where I belong. This is the place only for me

Oh and damn ganda ng kanta nila enzo... Enzo get me a CD just tell me how much!

ivory and ebony

the needle

so simple and clean...

A dog day

so simple and clean...

Coping with life

so simple and clean...

It comes....

so simple and clean...

"end of the yellow brick road"

so simple and clean...

topsy tervy

so simple and clean...

Inspired to....

so simple and clean...

The autisticity Party

so simple and clean...

Spanking at 50

so simple and clean...

Follow ups.....

so simple and clean...

ahh......hidden

so simple and clean...

Extremist.... but empty

so simple and clean...

Family Bites

so simple and clean...

The shocking truth....

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

and the storm rises

so simple and clean...

The Calm after the Storm

so simple and clean...

The irony of this world..... and the people who start the irony

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean... but life isnt that simple

so simple and clean... Was it?

so simple and clean...I hope tommorows finals are

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...it was

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean...

so simple and clean... And they are to me now Looks like he forum war is almost over Matt reminded us of something. just go to teatro baguntao's forum later if you wanna see it. hehe Guess things are kinda back to normal. I gotta thank matt.

so simple and clean... SRP... in position its show time boys! WOOHOO! Life is so good to me. I got a perfect score on my last test! I love it! SRp isnt that bad haha as long as you study and have a good motivation you'll make it through. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

so simple and clean... and the excitement feels in... WOOHOO!!! WERE HAVING A BLAST! grabe! yeah right. boredom to death year. I actualy napped today. Let's see what has boredom did to me. Today I've made. 1. 3 wallpapers 2. 2 layouts 4. arranged a midi wow fun

so simple and clean...
but life isnt that simple

so simple and clean...
Was it?

so simple and clean...
I hope tommorows finals are

so simple and clean...
And they are to me now

Looks like he forum war is almost over Matt reminded us of something. just go to teatro baguntao's forum later if you wanna see it. hehe Guess things are kinda back to normal. I gotta thank matt.

so simple and clean...
SRP... in position its show time boys!

WOOHOO! Life is so good to me. I got a perfect score on my last test! I love it! SRp isnt that bad haha as long as you study and have a good motivation you'll make it through.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

so simple and clean...
and the excitement feels in...

WOOHOO!!! WERE HAVING A BLAST! grabe!
yeah right.

boredom to death year. I actualy napped today.
Let's see what has boredom did to me.
Today I've made.
1. 3 wallpapers
2. 2 layouts
4. arranged a midi
wow fun